10 April 2006

Identity Crisis

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned!
--"I Don't Want to Be" by Gavin Degraw

This morning in devotions, the speaker mentioned the old saw that people's identities are tied to their professions. According to this ida, when a person ask herself, "Who am I?", the first answer is "I'm a doctor" or "I'm a mechanic" or whatever. It occurred to me that I don't do that. Why? Because I'm just Dani. I don't feel that I am accomplished enough in any one area to attach that to my identity. If I say "I am a knitter", that sets up espectations that I can't meet. Even calling myself a mother or a wife feels false. If you put a surveillance camera in my house, it wouldn't take you long to exclaim, "What kind of wife/mother are you?" I don't fit the mold; in my mind, I'm just a girl who chose to attach herself to this man and care for these children. So if I can't identify myself by what I do, how do I figure out who I am?


1 comment:

Tonya said...

Hey Dani,

Was just catching up on my reading in your blog and stopped dead in my tracks reading Identity Crisis.. It was like you were pulling the same thoughts out of my head..lol I feel exactly like this as well.